Depression, chronic fatigue syndrome (2 stages)

Nika 17 y.o Dnipro Ukraine

Hello everyone! My name is Nika, I’m 17 years old. I’m from Dnipro and have been in Dublin for over two years now. I completed the second stage of treatment a month ago. The diagnoses that led me to see the professor were: depression; chronic fatigue syndrome.

I entered the first stage back in February of this year. At that time, there were a lot of complaints, the most important of which were related to my psyche and psychological state. My condition was made worse by the understanding that I was in the 11th grade and I needed to choose who I wanted to become and what I wanted to study. Relatives and people around me were pressuring me, asking questions about the future. Unfortunately, I also drove myself crazy and wanted from myself what I could not handle. More than five or six years ago, I began to realize that everyday life, routine, took more energy from me than from those around me, and I began to suspect chronic fatigue syndrome. Seeing how hard a regular school day was for me, I realized that I simply would not be able to study for the profession I wanted. It was painful.

This school year, it became so difficult that I had difficulty getting out of bed, I lacked strength to such an extent… every morning I had to choose: I make myself breakfast or do my homework. Since this was my 11th grade, most often the choice fell on lessons. But, unfortunately, even easy subjects took too much time and energy from me. I managed to do three to five lessons a day instead of seven or eight (not to mention preparing for the ZNO). School debts accumulated, people around me pressured me to choose a profession, and I tyrannized myself, saying that I was not capable of anything, that I did not have the strength for anything. At a certain point, I started having suicidal thoughts, and I went to see a psychiatrist. After many tests, the doctor diagnosed me with mild to moderate depression. My mother immediately bought me a ticket to Ukraine, where they planned to do a full check-up of my body and undergo treatment with Vagif Mamedovich.

Before treatment with the professor, I took the medications prescribed to me by the psychiatrist for five weeks. I did not see any effect from two types of antidepressants and several types of sedatives at the same time. The doses of the medications kept increasing and additional ones were prescribed, and I saw less and less hope for recovery. I was very lucky and was able to see the professor. I came to the clinic without hope. During a meeting at the clinic, I decided for myself that if the treatment does not help, I will end everything. I no longer looked for reasons to live on, I just held on to my mother’s requests to wait until the treatment or medications begin to work.

I came with 39 complaints, such as:
• lack of strength (despite a long sleep); lethargy; anxiety about the future; self-aggression; inability to learn; depressed mood; guilt that I can’t become what people want me to be; suicidal thoughts; internal tension; unwillingness to communicate with others (despite the fact that I am very sociable); intolerance of long conversations; inability to concentrate on the good;
• severe pain in the shoulder joint; heartburn; bruises on the body for no reason; darkening in the eyes, dizziness if I eat poorly or skip a meal; swelling.

After the first stage, all of the above passed. The only thing is that I catch myself thinking about suicide even when everything is good in life.